Too Much

I think I will probably have to write a few different posts about all the stuff that I have been up to since my fight.

I have to admit, I have been taking it easy.  I am still training almost everyday but not with the intensity as I was leading up to the fight.  I am thinking about doing another fight on Dec. 3rd.  I have some reservations about taking a fight at that time though because I am going to start my job at the law firm on Nov. 29th.

Taking the fight then scares me because when I lost my second fight I had a lot going on.  I finally got my bachelor's degree after a long 8 year journey the weekend before my fight.  In some ways this seems almost like the same thing.  I will finally start working after this long journey through law school and the bar.  If my first week this time is anything like my first week last summer then I will probably be completely exhausted at the end of each day.

Aside from just the fear about whether I will be drained everyday, I am also nervous about whether I would have a hard time with my weight because I will be in a completely different environment than my usual routine.  Finally, and probably the thing that makes me most nervous is that I am really nervous about it.  I think that, given a good opponent, if I am scared or feel insecure about my ability then I could lose.  My mental state for the fight I just had was the opposite.  I had no fear of losing because no matter who they put in there with me I knew that no one was preparing as much as I was and that there was no way I was going to lose.

That sort of mental state comes from training so hard and so many hours that you just have total confidence in all your moves and techniques.  I do not know if the time to train that much will be there when the next fights in KC come around.

This is all just ramblings anyway until I talk to John and the promoter to see about getting on the card.